My
mum was always the main person in my life..She looked after our
family, tried the best
she
could to raise polite, educated, well-mannered kids, I think she did
a great job!
Throughout
all these years relationship between us had their ups and downs. When
I was small I was always kissing her and telling how much I love her.
During
teenage years I tried to be open with her, every day after school I
was telling her everything about my day and schoolmates, later this
backfired when we had arguments, which meant that I couldn't share
things with her and caused me to have little secrets from my mum.
Closer
to 18-19 years old when everyone started to go out more, started
seeing boys, I wasn't allowed to do that, and when my mum found out I
have a boyfriend she was against him, against our relationship. As
you can imagine it played it's role on our further relationship- I
started hiding more things, started saying what she wanted to hear
which was most of the time a lie.
I
was always told what to do and what not to, she was always strict,
which forced me to find support in other relatives and us to never
have relationship as friends.
Looking
back at our relationship I'm scared that I could do exactly the same
mistakes. I really hope that I will be able to build something much
better with my daughter.
